Tuesday, 22 December 2015
STORM CHASER
It wasn't the rain , or the breeze,
or the fact that her organs
felt like they were on the out side
that made her stop.
It was the light.
It trickled down through
the spindly tree fingers
and cast a cobweb of black onto her face.
The light.
It was cold light.
White blue grey light that was heavy in the air
as she huddled under this giant fairy tale tree
to hide from the storm.
The outside storm that is,
not the storm in her head.
She never hid from that.
That she embraced with warm wooden arms
that splintered and chipped.
It wasn't the first time this had happened,
it may not be the last
but it was another time
and she didn't see why deserved another time.
So she never ran from the storm in her head
but they did.
They cowered from it,
shuddered and shook in its wake.
Instead of trying to weather it,
to harness it,
to just brace themselves against the coming winds
they all fell to the shelters and storm drains
that soon became her past.
But you see,
she was bigger than small boys in all weather clothing.
She was bigger than tiny men in flimsy boots
that hid and shook.
She was bigger than most.
She was lightening just searching for her thunder.
Wednesday, 16 December 2015
TATTERED
They dragged from her. Strange half words in breathless icy syllables.
Sharp sounds that fell on soft mushy
ears.
Fumbled and tumbled and crashing from her junk brain, her
trash mouth, her fat tongue. Her lips, too thick for her mouth to tell her
story.
The police woman hands her a hot thing. Hard, and hot, too
hot. “Cup”, she says, “Of tea”, she says. Words are fractured. Thoughts tattered.
Body torn.
She tries to tell the tale of her fall from grace. Her push
from grace. Her shove from grace. The theft of her grace. She tries to force
the words out through slick teeth past metal fillings and into the air.
She sits on a chair that hurts her creaky rigid bones. Snapping
bones. Brittle icy battered bones.
This room is full of strangers, foreign to her, she doesn’t speak
their language, or she does she just forgets how.
She remembers to try and push the words out again but her
fettered breath hangs limp in the air as strange eyes and strange hands draw
their own conclusions.
There is no comfort here, in this bare room of hard walls
and soft people. No comfort. Except for inside the hard and hot. Hard and hot
and really there. A cup, she said, of tea she said.
It seems there is always comfort to be found, at the bottom
of a hot drink.
CIMERII
Have you ever laid in bed at night
Eyes heavy with the weight of the day
And tried to sleep
Really sleep
But nothing will quiet the incessant rushing
And whirring of the world at full spin.
The pulse of the vacant throng of your room, your bed.
You close your eyes to a cacophony of internal noises
BABUM! BABUM! BABUM!
Your heart beats out of rhythm with the rest of the human
race
You blink a sand storm into your brain
Winds howl and rain pounds
And you lie there
Eyes scrunched up to the night
You lie there and think,
Why is this emptiness so loud?
Why are my bones creaking and my heart
Heavy and loud as steel?
Why can’t I just sleep?
You are weighty and slumping into the chasm
The gap in consciousness, in knowing.
And tomorrow is just a flicker of an eyelid away,
It always never more than a flicker away
And you drift
Down
Deep
Underneath a blanket of Cimmerian shade.
Monday, 5 October 2015
Chaos and Squalor
I am full of chaos and squalor.
You might even say that I have a dirty mind.
But not in the sexy; “I’ll rip your clothes off with my
teeth”, way.
No.
I have a dirty mind in that it is…
…Unclean.
My thoughts are dust and grime.
My sentience polluted.
Words tumble from my lips all…
…Gritty and hard.
I inhale the worlds’ depravity,
And exhale with diesel breath.
Forever tainted by global sadness.
Making me dirty.
Making me dank, and dreary and…
…souring me.
There is so much disarray in this world.
In this spinning pile of air and water and earth.
And us.
Preying on each other,
Searching for the ultimate quick fix prescription.
A quick fix to fix me quick.
Harvest the unwashed masses.
The fellow unclean.
My filthy brethren.
God it’s just so…
…bleak.
Sometimes it’s just too hard to stay buoyant
In a world that’s made of lead and quicksand.
Tuesday, 10 March 2015
SECOND SIGHT
Her fingers cast shadow branches across the wooden floor,
as she held them to the light.
Sunspots marred her vision. From the ground she heard whispers:
‘Is it him?’
She convulsed violently on the floor, shaking her way out
of poverty’s iron grip.
Their grief was palpable, hungry, and blind.
They clucked in anticipation as she sprung bolt upright,
head back, eyes rolling. She bellowed,
in the deepest voice she could muster, ‘Yes, darling it is me’.
Dust fell from her like glitter in the sunlight.
She heaved and sweated and sucked all the air right out
of the room, feverish in her deception.
Desperation turns us all into whores.
She heard someone fall to their knees and then a sharp snap
as a coin purse opened. ‘There is no guilt to this duplicity’ she thought, as a
tiny glint of hope reappeared in two eyes made of sorrow.
THE PERIPHERY OF LIGHT
Of misty doubt and dewy emotion.
Unguent viscous rain drips raw feeling into our eyes
As we search for that break,
That flash of light.
One day you wake up right out of a cold reverie
And you realise,
No one ever looks at me anymore,
No one ever looks at anyone anymore.
Stone cold feelings, like you’ve lost.
The loss of nothing
The loss of everything.
One day, you wake up and think:
‘No this isn’t right’
Life knocked you off your feet,
Kicked you when you were down.
But, one day, you wake up and…
BOOM!
There’s that break in the clouds.
That golden beam of hope
Just pushing through the thick heavy dullness.
Suddenly it’s worth it.
It’s worth all the darkness
The doubt
The fear
The pain
It’s worth it all
Because that one beam of sunlight
Is breathing life into everything it touches.
Then you realise that no one was looking at you
Because no one could see you
You were clothed in grey and shadow.
So you get up and you dust yourself off
And you shake the cobwebs from your battered skull
And you step up
And you step out
And you step into the light.
And now you are clothed in gold
Wings stretched out for flight
Like Icarus, daring the sun to melt your wings.
All the while knowing that unlike Icarus,
Your time in the gloom means the light will never take
you.
It will merely surround you, and carry you, should you
decide to let it.
You’ve learned not to fly too close,
Just to skim the edges,
To graze the periphery
And to fly
Fly, fly fly.
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